Yap sesh

Hi I kinda just wanted to yap bc I dont really have anything better to do. Honestly, I don't even do anything most of these days. I just chud around scrolling through Insta or watching TWD. Speaking of TWD, anyone else feel like throwing up instead of crying? I was watching episode 3 of season 6 and a lot happened. Everyone died and there were so many emotional scenes making my stomach sorta churn. I can chalk it up to what I ate which were two popsicle sticks and some homemade pizza bread, but it's not like it was gross or anything. I made it the same way my ex taught me. A half stick of butter, melted, seasoned with garlic and Italian seasoning. That was how she made her homemade garlic butter. FUCK I miss her but I can't change the past or how things ended up going. I broke up with her so I have no right to say I miss her. Anyways, back to what I was saying. I don't really cry anymore and I don't mean it in a edge lord sorta way but I genuinely can't cry in emotional scenarios. Instead my stomach begins to churn and I start feeling nauseous. Is that just me? Yesterday the same thing happened when I was watching TWD season 5 finale. Maybe my stomach has grown more sensitive. I dont really have any eating habits, I just eat whatever whenever. Ugh now I feel more like a chud. I want to be more productive yet I can't find the right motivation to do something about it. It feels like my entire future is on the line and im here ranting. What does it matter anyway, the world is being ran by pdfs and evil ppl. All will be well as long as I have my DSi and some za >:3 and my phone ig