Today was a lot

As everyone who has followed this knows, I’ve been trying to get in varsity my senior year on the tennis team. It’s been a lot of hard work but the way I performed today gives me hope. I think I did well during practice today and days like that come few and far between as I can be pretty hard in myself at times, so I’m trying to enjoy this moment as much as I can.
Beyond that I wanted to hang out with my boyfriend today but I’m starting to believe he thinks of me as too clingy. I can’t help having anxious attachment issues, it’s just the way I am. I always want to hang out with him and my parents have told me it’s worrying that I spend so much time with him. I think it’s because they believe that he’s my best friend and they aren’t necessarily wrong. I spend more time with him than I do my other friends but I’ve started to notice he wants more space. I don’t want to suffocate him, but at the same time I just can’t stand being alone. I grow tired of myself to easily.
Anyways I’ve started baking as of a few days ago to occupy myself. 2 days ago I made strawberry shortcake and today I made chocolate covered strawberries. A lot of emotions today but the chocolate covered strawberries helped make them easier to process ^^