rants

hi so i guess ima use this as rants
so today (8/6/26)me my older sister(A) and her boyfriend where dropping off our younger sister at color guard practice and we went to a thai restaurant after we dropped her off and we ordered to go so as we were leaving A starts talking about my friends and how they are just weird and compares them to basically 2019 cringe tiktok videos and my friends are technically classified as weird cuz they like some animes and video games(like fnaf ,devil may cry,ect.) and music that she doesn’t like(like metal,rock , kpop,ect.) or cool hobbys (like crafts ,playing guitar,drums,bass,painting,ect.)so god forbid i defend them because they aren’t weird and they are my friends and not hers and the moment i say at least they are interesting because she doesn’t have any hobby’s except being on her phone so my bad you got your feelings hurt in an argument you started


(8/16/26)
ok im aroace and im still trying to figure out what exactly type of aro and ace but i feel like i also shouldn’t say that i am ace given the that im 16 and my brain is like “well how do you know your ace your still to young and haven’t done anything to decide that” but on the other hand ik im aro just not what kind but like i always feel bad about being aro ive never try to start a relationship (except for this one time let just say we are ex-best friends but we are still friends kinda (this is when i fully figured out i was aroace) he liked me and it felt like he was loveboming me and he asked if i would date him and i felt like if i didn’t say yes we would stop being friends but the “dating” part only last for about a few days cuz it was during summer and my dog died after i got back from a camp so i just shut down after that and stopped talking to everyone that summer)cuz ik ill never like anyone like that and there are times when i really just hate talking to people so i wont respond to anyone but for me being aro it makes me feel so bad cuz i feel like i want someone to like me but when someone does i dont like it and like i “want” a relationship or something but ik i could never actually do one