a first blog entry for some troubles that i've been going through. i never believed in the term "summer depression", however, after actually experiencing it firsthand, it's safe to say it does exist. being holed up in my room all summer wasn't exactly my plan but alas, nothing has gone my way this year.
after finding out that i have classes with no one this year, i've given up all hope on having a good school year. it's not even that i can't make new friends, i know i will eventually. i just doubt my ability in the beginning.
it's been 2 days since my birthday and i'm finally 15. i didn't think i would make it this far into my life, 7th grade me would be proud of how far i've come. however, summer depression wants to strike me down as if i don't deserve to feel said happiness. when i was asked to wish upon a candle, i had wished for a shorter life. i felt like i didn't deserve all the people around me and the people to come, the life i was given and the life i may have, and i sure didn't deserve to feel undeserving because i have enough to not complain. what's the point of living if you can't even enjoy the life you have now?
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