Rant/vent #1

Lowk I been feeling like Trisha crying on her kitchen floor like I'm sooo over it. Ok so BOOM I been feeling like I dont have friends bc I kinda don't like I hang out with this friend group and I have been for like 2 years now but I'm not really in it yk? Like everyone's got their own duo in the friend group but i don't and I have a "best friend" but like we don't rlly talk especially not recently. I also don't got family to talk to bc I dont trust either sides of my family. They either suck up to me because they hate my mom and want to be on my good side and my dad side is full of toxic people who treat me like I'm not related to them and only act nice to me when it benefits them or bc they dont have anyone to talk trash about to their sibling and then go behind my back to talk trash about me. My dad side of the family will insult you for no reason and make u feel like shit but God forbid you say anything back bc then they snitch on you and my dad doesnt defend me at all its always "Well that how they are" and "You shouldn't say that" like bffr 🫩. Literally the only person I have is my brother but he's away at college so all I can do is text him. Ugh the people around me make me sick deadahh like they swear you can trust them but in reality they dont even like you like how can you live life being so toxic to each other. My dads side of the family treats me like I cant do anything like chores but they never ask me to do anything and have the audacity to complain about it and they make fun of me for it. One of them complains to me about her life only for her to talk about me to her sister when she complains to me about her sister all the time and the other one thinks she so much better then everyone else that she's smarter and prettier. All she ever talks about is the guys that hit on her and want her and she thinks her sister can't handle all honors and AP classes bc she doesn't thinks she smart enough for it when she herself did all AP and honors classes. She thinks I cant pull anyone because I'm "not the prettiest in the bunch" and one day she'll call me fat but God forbid i complain about it bc all of a sudden "idek why ur complaining like ur skinny" like I'm so sickkk 😭. Anyways hope yalls august is going better then mine ✌️😼