Random yapping

So like, I've always been a very anxious person, and lately I've been super stressed as well. But, when I used to get stressed, I could like, kinda tell I was stressed but I wouldn't really care? I'd just be kinda floating in my brain/I wouldn't really think of it or let myself feel any of the stress, yk? I'd just act like it didn't bother me. Anyways, a few days ago after a super stressful week cramming assignments and some other stuff that happened, while I was on my way back home from school, I suddenly felt so weird. Like, everything felt so real, more than it usually does. And I think I've realized that I just kind of dissociate a lot of the time. Nothing really feels super serious. I know that it is serious, and in a way it stresses me out, but at the same time, it doesn't feel like it's happening to me. I feel like I'm watching someone else experience it, yk? Yo I hope this isn't crazy or something. Maybe I'm just making this up, idk. Bc I still feel things, like, a lot. I've always been told I'm super emotional, so like idk how this could even be something I could experience. I could lowkey be lying to myself 👀..
Bro why are all my blogs super depressing 😭