Sort of a vent but I've been thinking about how last school year my close friend at the time got with my ex ((n he knew we got off on bad terms)) and it was my fault that I had an opinion about it;; like I lost friends over it,, I don't get how it was my fault even to this day

I, most of the time have those thoughts about how pathetic am I, that I am attention seeking shithead. All those cringe memories showing up like a slide movie and it's really sticking up onto me. I just want people to see, show off something I am kinda? proud of. Show I'm not useless, but my mind always grounds me down. Embarrassing

One day after school I was getting off of the bus, it was so cold and my legs wouldn't stop trembling and on top of that, I was wearing high heel boots that I still couldn't get used to walk in. Just as I was walking out I lost my balance and fell in front of a man that was sitting, like I was kneeling down him. I'm still so embarrassed, sorry random man on the bus... ᯣ_ᯣ

does music being stuck in your head keep others awake too or is my brain an oddity