Something I struggle to come to terms with is that I don’t like everyone, and not everyone likes me.

I have some friends that I’m not that close with, but they still ask to hang out once in a blue moon. Tbh, I don’t really want to hang out with them, but don’t know how to really tell them without hurting their feelings. I feel guilty for not wanting to be friends with them, but I suppose it can’t be helped. Part of why is because we have very different interests and lives, plus they don’t particularly try to keep in touch. In truth, I don’t know if we’ll even hang out again, cuz they’re pretty busy and last time someone tried to organize smth, schedules did not align (which I was acc relieved for 😭). Right now, I’m just not saying anything in the group chats, not that they’re very active anyway. It’s been hard for me to accept that I just don’t click with them, I feel like I try hard to click with anyone who’s nice to me/hangs out with me because I’m desperate for human connection but I just need to make friends that I don’t feel confused about (not to say I don’t, I’m very thankful I do).

As for people not liking me, I feel hypocritical because I’m really bad at handling rejection. This one friend I was relatively close to suddenly told me they didn’t want to be friends and it really upset me. Obviously, my relationship with diff friends are different, but aren’t I the same? I was friends with some people and then I slowly realized I didn’t want to be friends with them anymore. So why am I so bitter about it?

This is just a ramble but feel free to comment, wld love to hear ur input