Hello sweethearts! Id like to ask something that I don't think I should be asking here but whatever. I often feel disconnected with my body, as if im just watching my life trough VR, the sounds around me feel distand and can't focus on what someone is saying or where I am. I also have a fear of losing control of myself. It mostly happens when I'm surrounded by a lot of people and noise. Or when I'm quiet for too long. I didn't know it was something real and I thought I was just making it up until I saw a yt short abt it and then I started searching and I came to a name derealization and depersonification. Took an online test and watched some vids abt it and always could relate to the stuff they were saying. BUT I'm scared to tell my mom. She will ask where I got the term from and when I say the internet it's not gonna end well. Also I dont want to go to my old therapist. (I kinda left her on a cliffhanger on our last session lol) But I also dont want to go to a new one cuz I'd have to explain everything again.. Idk what to do soo if someone has any advice I'd mean the world to me ᐢᴗ͈ ᴗ͈ᐢꕀ♡