for a couple of years now, i haven't been excited about my birthday at all. last year i made some "cozier" plans for it to drown out the disaster it was the year before (at least emotionally), the year before that didn't feel like much either... and some etc.

this time, tho, i'm feeling some of the excitement seeping through my anxieties over wether the party is going to be pleasant for all or not!! the party is in a couple of weeks, but tomorrow, at the official day, me n my mom planned out a whole day with a slight pt. 2 on the next day, since everyone except for us will be traveling or at somebody else's house, hehe!!!