Im honestly very jealous.
Of a lot of things.. its unfair. I hate it.
Its supposed to be mine. But it isn't?? And as much as I hate it. I also hate myself for even feeling that way.
Its not mine. Won't ever be. It is its own thing. I have no right to take it as mine. But then someone else gets it and I just?? I hate it so much.
Anyways. Fuck them all. Fuck that guy.. I shouldn't yearn for sm1 like that. Or anything else... really.