(SMALL VENT) so for some backstory I'm a firm believer that people can be from multiple universes, like it's hard to explain but when someone dies or something happens they move to another creature, sometimes in another universe so in one universe you could be like idk your favorite character and then in this one you're you for reasons I can't explain, it's something connected to the idea of shifting existing like if you can change universes who's to say this is the FIRST one your soul has been to? so I have memories and connections from other universes, call me crazy or call me weird I don't care but it's real to me and at this point I'll do anything to find an escape from the world. So with that backstory explained for you I wanna say it hurts so bad to not be able to experience those lives anymore, I haven't managed to shift yet and I hate it because I have FRIENDS over there, friends, family, pets I can never see again, never hug again, never talk to again. I know it sounds cringey to believe this but I connect to Wile e coyote and Daffy duck and it's to the point I'm missing the pain, the smell of gunpowder and the mocked and embarrassed feeling after a days work of being thwarted, I miss my fangs and I miss my feathers, I miss my bird and I miss my stupid rabbit. I've connected to by now like a very large handful of characters or animals and every single one of them pains me to not be able to be anymore. at my soul I'm a shapeshifter, a creature that can change form at will but now I can't, I feel stuck and sore like something in me needs to shift, like when you really need to crack your knuckles but can't, a feeling deep inside to be myself in a way I can no longer achieve. I need to move in ways I no longer can, sprout wings and fly to the sky and nearly touch the sun, whip my tail around freely, perk my ears up to hear better. I feel condensed like a caged bird, claustrophobic and trapped. I hate it. I hate being stuck. I want to run free like I yearn for.