this is a vent.

whenever i tell people i don't have a phone "Oh your so lucky" no I'm not, you don't understand how i feel every single day especially when the person that won't give you the phone keeps on talking about it,legit PLAYING in your face. " I want to give it to you but i can't " "whenever i see a kid with a phone i think of you" " if you had a phone you'd be addicted " it fucking sucks and im 16 years old btw about to turn 17, in 4 months i literally cannot do anything i look for college/other resources "you need a phone number" a program I'm in i needed a phone to scan a qr code and I couldn't do it and i had to embarrass myself in front of the whole class and then you needed a phone number afterwards "what about those temporary numbers you can get"that doesn't work for me bc I don't have a normal device, I get scared telling people i don't have a phone literally when i people they made fun of me I can't do this anymore, i want to get a bunerphone but i can't get it online bc my mom sees everything i buy on my card, and i can't fet it irl bc i live in the middle of buttfuck nowhere and i can't go outside bc my mom hates me