Lotus

when it gets so bad you lowk gotta go back to the adopt me grind

Anybody got any fun offline mobile game recs? I'm getting bored of the ones i currently play and i know the folks on here got really good taste!
I usually play a girl adrift but mostly when i wanna zone out while doing something repetitive, so i'd prefer ones that are different than that type (☆^ー^☆)

Yippe got back to drawing again! I really love this one so hopefully i manage to finish it later

It feels unfair how everyone else around me seems to play their human role effortlessly, and whenever I try too it feels to me like fighting against the current of my own nature. Like it is something that's built in within my soul. I know in my rational mind that there exist many others that feel the same, maybe they're just better at hiding it. But I can't help but wish I could change to be anyone else, or even better just not exist in this reality at all. It feels like the never ending passage of time in this life is dragging me by my feet while I struggle to get back up.
I look at my peers joyously living in the moment while I have to fight my own thoughts trying to numb myself from feeling and overthinking about my thinking just to be able to pretend to keep up with them. They dance happily on the stage while I vacantly watch from the back yearning for that same motion, that same glow of life in their eyes. I know how self-centered this way of viewing things is, but I can't change it. I wish I could, after all it is probably the solution to this problem. I feel so disconnected. Even the days where I feel so euphoric like I could do anything become just another part of journey that leaves me even more drained afterwards.
The count on how many times I said "feel" must be high, would it be better if I couldn't feel anymore?

I'm tired of all the yelling and constantly living in survival mode

I haven't been here in so long I missed everyone here
But I'm back!!! Hopefully everyone's doing alright.
As for me, I'm going through an extremely difficult time rn, might go into it in another post since I need to get it off my chest.
Can't wait to meet everyone new, it's been more than a month after all :D

I haven't created in a while, I crave making art (⩺_⩹)
I'm sure the urge to draw will be the strongest right before a physics exam smh

1 week left till I go to school...

My love for ballet has been reignited...Except I am extremely inflexible and have never practiced ballet in my life so I guess all I can do is watch ┐(￣ヮ￣)┌
Did anyone here ever try doing ballet at some point or atleast entertain the idea?

WxS dances require so much energy, it leaves me exhausted afterwards aaaa but they're extremely fun to do!! Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ
Do you guys like to dance sometimes? If so, what kinds of dances?