Lotus

when it gets so bad you lowk gotta go back to the adopt me grind

Anybody got any fun offline mobile game recs? I'm getting bored of the ones i currently play and i know the folks on here got really good taste!
I usually play a girl adrift but mostly when i wanna zone out while doing something repetitive, so i'd prefer ones that are different than that type (☆^ー^☆)

Yippe got back to drawing again! I really love this one so hopefully i manage to finish it later

It feels unfair how everyone else around me seems to play their human role effortlessly, and whenever I try too it feels to me like fighting against the current of my own nature. Like it is something that's built in within my soul. I know in my rational mind that there exist many others that feel the same, maybe they're just better at hiding it. But I can't help but wish I could change to be anyone else, or even better just not exist in this reality at all. It feels like the never ending passage of time in this life is dragging me by my feet while I struggle to get back up.
I look at my peers joyously living in the moment while I have to fight my own thoughts trying to numb myself from feeling and overthinking about my thinking just to be able to pretend to keep up with them. They dance happily on the stage while I vacantly watch from the back yearning for that same motion, that same glow of life in their eyes. I know how self-centered this way of viewing things is, but I can't change it. I wish I could, after all it is probably the solution to this problem. I feel so disconnected. Even the days where I feel so euphoric like I could do anything become just another part of journey that leaves me even more drained afterwards.
The count on how many times I said "feel" must be high, would it be better if I couldn't feel anymore?

I'm tired of all the yelling and constantly living in survival mode

I haven't been here in so long I missed everyone here
But I'm back!!! Hopefully everyone's doing alright.
As for me, I'm going through an extremely difficult time rn, might go into it in another post since I need to get it off my chest.
Can't wait to meet everyone new, it's been more than a month after all :D

I haven't created in a while, I crave making art (⩺_⩹)
I'm sure the urge to draw will be the strongest right before a physics exam smh

1 week left till I go to school...

My love for ballet has been reignited...Except I am extremely inflexible and have never practiced ballet in my life so I guess all I can do is watch ┐(￣ヮ￣)┌
Did anyone here ever try doing ballet at some point or atleast entertain the idea?

WxS dances require so much energy, it leaves me exhausted afterwards aaaa but they're extremely fun to do!! Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ
Do you guys like to dance sometimes? If so, what kinds of dances?

I should've started watching Hannibal earlier this is so peak I'm loving it sm

Have you ever wondered what the world would looks like if everything was deleted? And I mean EVERYTHING including color and the void.
Little me would imagine a png background but that counts as something too..hmm （￣～￣;）

If you're feeling down, just remember..
Cats exist
I live for cats
I have woken up with a deep realization and appreciation for cats
We have been blessed by the presence of these divinely adorable and curious creatures in our lives, it is our sacred duty to dedicate our lives to them.

Anyone else motivated to lock in this august? Cuz I really need to get my shit together and the start of a new month always feels like a good time to begin!
My goals are to stay consistent with my tasks and make them feel as easy to do as possible, those include taking better care of myself since I tend to forget that is a priority too, and to work better on how I react to the things happening around me whether it's irl or a random comment on the internet.
I want to feel slightly better, I'm willing to make it happen and you can too! (☆^ー^☆)

Sometimes the only expression that can describe my feelings towards life in general is "What the fuck"
Cuz genuinely what the fuck

If you could create a recipe of a sweet dessert from a supernatural world where a wide variety of magical ingredients exist, what would you name it? And how would you describe its appearance and tasting experience? (☆^ー^☆)
I bet the answers will make me hungry asf

I lowkey think I cooked considering my usual drawing abilities
Why does drawing only come naturally to me in very specific impulsive moments ＼(;´□｀)/

Does anyone else ever feel like they need a tutorial on how to interact with people? (◎_◎;)

I wish I could independantly make money as a teenager, but I live in a place where part-time jobs for teens aren't a thing and I also wish I could make money online so no one could know (T⌓T)
I'm sure a lot of others can relate, do you have any suggestions tho?

I love these kinds of papers you can fill out, they have me thinking quite a lot about myself ^^

Who else want to get as tuff and strong as Toph? Cuz I sure did get the urge to start working out and finally wave goodbye to my weak noodle body days (￣^￣)

Wip of an oc design I drew a few days ago. I can only draw this good in times of crisis so I don't think I can intentionally summon drawing skills to this level ever again (´･_･`)

I hate going out in public so much it's not a joke anymore ╥﹏╥ my brain just stops functioning normally and acts as if everyone around me hates me and wants to hurt me even if I know in my rational mind that's not true.. Hope I can overcome this somehow, if it's even possible to.

EVERYBODY WATCH AND READ WITCH HAT ATELIER RIGHT THE FUCK NOWWW!! It's one of the most wonderful stories I've seen, so wonderful It helped me regain my will to live during difficult times (Ｔ▽Ｔ) The characters and their dynamics, the art, the magic...All of it was incredibly beautiful!! Agott has taken over my brain lately I love her so muchhh

bsd and Voltron mention!

What are yall's favorite character archetypes/story themes?? (Examples : The small but smart one, goofy and laid-back hero, The dead/unpresent character that's haunting the narrative..etc)

Idk if i choose study a bit for next school year over the summer or not, my maths and physics grades weren't so good ╥﹏╥

I'm gonna get a new phone around my bday (14 aug) so I can finally go back to pjsk, my curreny device is huawei so no google play services=no pjsk ;-;
Also will use that new phone to record random moments and post them on yt, video diary-ish style （⌒▽⌒）so excited!!

Need to start studying for my exams starting now cuz ik dam well how lazy I can get during the school year ಥ⌣ಥ gotta finish reading la boîte à merveilles first wish me luck!!

I really want to start collecting Ever After High dolls in the future once I get a job or atleast some sort of income for myself, and old anime figures too

I think EVERYONE should read red's aurora comic (and watch some vids from osp on yt aswell). I've been watching osp since my childhood and when i discovered that red made her own comic I KNEW it was gonna be awesome, and it was!!

I've been way into bsd kin quizzes one time that I'm fully confident I did every single one that has ever been made till then